Showing posts with label New Adult. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Adult. Show all posts

Saturday, November 30, 2013

12 Days of New Adult Giveaway Hop!

Welcome to the first ever The Twelve Days of New Adult Giveaway Hop, hosted by Stuck In Books :D! I'm so excited to be participating in this giveaway hop, because I am a New Adult Addict. What's up for grabs? One winner will get to choose two kindle books of their choice from the ones listed below.

 



~ Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire

~Fallen Too Far by Abbi Glines

~My Unexpected Forever by Heidi McLaughlin

~Escaping Me by Elizabeth Lee

~Every Rose by Lynetta Halat

~Arsen by Mia Asher

~Willing Captive by Belle Aurora

~Charmed by Cambria Heber

~Everything I've Never Had by Lynetta Halat

~Panic by J.A. Huss

~Let Me In by Michelle Lynn

~The Thrill of It by Lauren Blakely




Thank you for stopping by my blog! 

 

 

 

Rules:

  • Winner must be 18+ 

  • One person will win (2) kindle book of their choice.

  • Open Internationally 

  • Winner will have 24hrs to reply to my email, or else I will have to choose a different winner.


  • The giveaway ends December 12th.

     

Monday, October 14, 2013

Cover Reveal: Break My Fall by J.T. Cameron

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Book Title: Break my Fall  

 

Author: J.T. Cameron  

 

Genre: New Adult 

  

Release Date: October 22nd  

 

Hosted by:Book Enthusiast Promotions

 


Synopsis
When Leah’s ex-boyfriend Kevin betrays her in a horrifically public way, she leaves town to spend her last summer of college in a place where no one knows who she is, what happened to her, and what she did to make herself so vulnerable.
All she wants is a little peace of mind and some good surfing so she can regroup before returning for her senior year. After his own tragedy a few years ago, Drew developed an entirely new and unique outlook on life and became a risk-taker, daring and dangerous, everything Leah wanted to avoid. But a chance encounter forces her to let Drew into her life, little by little, secret by secret. He’s smart, funny, persistent, hot, and makes money in a rather unconventional way. They share a mutual fascination and attraction, until her past with Kevin complicates her present with Drew, making Leah question her future. Just as her life seems to be spinning out of control, Leah learns that sometimes you save someone by letting them save you.

 

 

  Excerpt 

Drew put his hat on and pulled it down just enough to where I could still see his eyes. He finally answered, and it wasn’t what I expected at all. “You’re the first girl I’ve ever seen surfing around here. I mean really surfing, not just messing around. That interested me. That’s why I talked to you those times. Because you were different. Like me. You’re a risk-taker, but something’s holding you back. Something happened to you. That’s why you’re here. That’s why you mostly keep to yourself. That’s why you have those walls up.” I felt my eyes narrowing in anger. I didn’t like this at all. Everything he was saying was true. And it pissed me off. I slid off the seat and stood. “I have to go.” I started walking toward the door and I had just picked up my surfboard when he said, “Leah, wait. I’m sorry.” I turned around. He got up and moved toward me. “It’s raining like crazy, it’s still windy. At least let me drive you home.” I looked out the window and saw that it was still quite blustery. Walking home with this surfboard wouldn’t have been much fun. And it was only a short distance, which meant I wouldn’t have to put up with him for long. I pushed the door open and started to walk out. “Okay. But stop psychoanalyzing me.” He held the door open for me. “Done.” 

 

 

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Thursday, October 10, 2013

Swoon Thursday (Special Edition) #17: Rook & Ronin Series by J.A. Huss

It's Swoon Thursday, hosted by  YA Bound. This is a weekly meme, which I will be doing every single Thursday :D! Here is how it works:

From the book you’re currently reading, or one you just finished, tell us what made you SWOON. Shout it out on Twitter with the hashtag #YABound, post it here in the comments, or grab the adorable button above and share it on your blog. We want to know!
 
This week I am swooning over the Rook & Ronin Series by J.A. Huss- Tragic, Manic, and Panic :D!!! You need to read this series, because there are A LOT of Swoon moments, both hot and sweet, but mostly HOT Swoon moments :D!

 

 

Swoon #1:

He leans all the way down into my ear, so close that my eyes shoot open when his breath tickles the sensitive skin. "Do me just like that, Rook. Please."

 

Swoon #2:

He eases up to let me turn, but as soon as I'm settled he presses against me again, only this time his chest is touching my breasts instead of my back, and his hands slip under my hair and begin to caress my neck. 



Swoon #1:

"Rook," Spencer repeats, a little harsher now. "I want kissing, I  want mad fucking passionate kissing. The kind of kissing I've  seen in all those other photos of you, the kissing that is so  filled with emotion and longing and lust, I'm instantly hard.  Kiss me like that, Blackbird."

 

Swoon #2:

His fingers thread through my hair and he kisses me again, only this time it's on the top of my head. A protective, emotional kiss. "I've never dated a girl like you, Rook. You are everything I want. I love all your parts. I love the wary parts, the defiant parts, the independent parts, and your innocence and vulnerability. I want you next to me and when you're not there I feel like a part of me is missing. I'm so in love with you, Rook. So fucking in love with you, it scares me."

 

 

 Swoon #1:

"I'm going to teach you what it means to be loved by me."
And then his mouth takes over. Both hands cup my face, pulling me into him, then one slides behind my neck while the other slides over my throat, pauses to palm it and then falls to my breast and palms that as well.


Swoon #2:

"Make me come'---pfft. Gidget, I can make you come anytime I want. Tonight you're not gonna just come babe. I'm gonna blow your fucking mind."

 

 

What did you think of my swoons? Have you read the Rook & Ronin series by J.A. Huss yet?

 

I will be doing a giveaway next week for all three books in the Rook & Ronin Series next week :D!

 

Leave the link to your Swoon Thursday post in the comments, and I will stop by :D! 

 

 

 

 

 


 



Thursday, September 26, 2013

Short Review: Unexpected by Faith Sullivan

Title: Unexpected

 

Author: Faith Sullivan

 

 Series: Stand Alone

 

Publication Date: April 2, 2013

 

Genre: New Adult Contemporary Romance

 

Source: e-book provided by author in exchange for my honest thoughts and review

 

Description from Goodreads:

One day forever changes the destiny of college overachiever, Michelle Rhodes.

Shattered, confused and alone, no one understands the trauma consuming her until she meets Connor Donnelly.

A native New Yorker, he believes he can aid in getting her life back on track. But what if he's even more broken inside?

Offering her a chance at a fresh start, Connor convinces Michelle to move in with him. Hiring her to waitress at his bar, their mutual attraction only complicates matters.

As more details surrounding Connor's past emerge, Michelle uncovers the full magnitude of the loss he's trying to hide. Refusing to let her feelings for him hinder his recovery, she makes a decision that winds up hurting them both.

By sacrificing her heart, Michelle thinks she is helping Connor come to terms with his grief. Little does she know, Connor is gambling everything for the sake of having a future with her.

What happens is truly unexpected.

 

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My Thoughts:

 

I longed for some sense of security, but there was none to be found.

Unexpected is the second book I've read from Faith Sullivan- I've read Heartbeat during the summer and really liked it-and all I have to say is that I LOVED Unexpected! I loved the story, the characters, and I loved the way Faith Sullivan included 9/11 into her story. I know some people might not want to read a book that has this event in the book, but Faith Sullivan did such an amazing job that it was just beautiful and respectful the way she did it.
The story begins with this tragic event that we all experienced and remember. I felt like I was reliving the whole thing all over again-that is how much Faith Sullivan was able to impact me. The main character Michelle is in her apartment  when this happens, and she goes into a state of shock, because she lives by herself and doesn't know anyone in New York.



My moping, my fear, my insecurities- he must want to scream at me to snap out of it already.

The 9/11 event emotionally affects Michelle's life. The happy, out-going, dream-seeker, independent, and successful college student she was before 9/11 is gone. Michelle becomes depressed, fearful, doesn't want to complete her education, and has become insecure about everything she does in her life. Her character is an example of every person who wasn't related to the people that lost their lives, but she was still affected by how many Innocent people lost their lives in a matter of minutes. Michelle's character does overcome some of her insecurities and a little bit of her fear with the help of Connor. 

 


"We all need a light in the darkness to show us the way out."

We first meet Connor at a party Michelle goes to, and he is the mysterious and sexy guy. Connor is the guy that you wouldn't consider having a serious relationship with, because he has a reputation of a womanizer. But I absolutely loved Connor's character! What did I love about him? He is sexy, mysterious, deep, respectful, hardworking, and he is just an amazing guy. Connor was also affected by the 9/11 event and I can't say much more about this, because I don't want to ruin the book for all of you! Connor's character also overcomes his own emotional problems with the help of Michelle.



"I'm starting to feel like a stalker, but I'm not giving up on you, Michelle."


I'm such a fool. I can't stay away from him. It's pointless.

I loved how the relationship of Connor and Michelle develops in the story. At first I thought he was a jerk for what he did to her when they got to New York, but late on in the novel I understand what he did. If I can describe Connor and Michell's relationship in one word it would be anchor. They are both each others emotional anchor. They both bring each other out of the darkness that they've been emerged in since 9/11. Connor and Michelle have become one of my favorite couples, and yes I do find myself thinking about them :).



"Yes, we. It's you and me from here on out." He says it with so much conviction that I'm slightly taken aback. "Where you go, I go."

Unexpected by Faith Sullivan was a beautiful contemporary romance story. Faith Sullivan did an amazing job in adding the 9/11 event into her story, because it made it that much more emotional and beautiful. 

 

 

Final Verdict: 5 Stars

 


About the Author:

I really hate talking about myself. My goal is to have the shortest author bio imaginable. I would much rather have a conversation with my readers.

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Does my writing make you feel something?
Are there characters that you can't get out of your head?

Let me know!

Email me at faithsullivanwrites [at] hotmail [dot] com

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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Review: Forever My Girl by Heidi McLaughlin

Title: Forever My Girl

Author: Heidi McLaughlin

Series: Beaumont #1

Publication Date: December 27, 2012

Genre: New Adult Contemporary Romance

Source: Bought

 

Description from Goodreads:

I was never supposed to be a rock star. I had my life all planned out for me. Play football in college. Go to the NFL. Marry my high school sweetheart and live happily ever after.

I broke both our hearts that day when I told her I was leaving. I was young. I made the right decision for me, but the wrong decision for us. I’ve poured my soul into my music, but I’ve never forgotten her. Her smell, her smile.

And now I’m going back.

After ten years.

I hope I can explain that after all this time.

I still want her to be my forever girl.

 

 

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Purchase the Beaumont Series:

 

Forever My Girl ($1.99)

{Liam's and Josie's Story}

 

My Everything ($0.99) 

{Nick's and Aubrey's Story}


My Unexpected Forever ($3.99)

{Harrison's and Katelyn's Story}

 

 

 

*I had written this review three months ago, but I just found it today on my computer. So here is my review for Forever My Girl!

 

 

My Thoughts:

 

I ruined her life. That is what her voice message said. The one I've saved for the past ten years. The one I've transferred from phone to phone just so I could hear her voice when I'm at my lowest.

The book starts off great, even if it is not a happy beginning. Liam has left his old life behind in his hometown, but he has also left his heart. I seriously did not understand his actions, until further in the book I understand him. From the very beginning I loved Liam's character. He is a brokenhearted rock star who is trying to live a new life that is surrounded by fame and groupies. Although, Liam is not your typical rock star.

  

 

He took my heart with him when he shut the door.

I loved reading from Josie's POV, which is another thing I loved of Forever My Girl. I enjoy reading books that have both the main characters POV. Josie is really loving, caring, sweet, and just your typical girl who is trying to get over their heartbreak over a guy. She loved Liam with all of her heart and he broke her heart the moment he left her, but she just can't hate him or love anyone else.

 

 

For as long as I can remember, I've lived in a hotel.

Liam lives a very depressing life as a rock star. Before leaving his hometown and the love of his life, he had the almost perfect life (a few problems here and there). Now that he has become a rock star, it seems that his life has the opposite effect on him than other rockers. What rocker would live in  a hotel? From other books I've read with rock stars (not many, but a few) they have an over-the-top condo or house to go to when they are not on tour. 


 

I can sense him; feel him moving across my skin like he's never left. When I open my eyes, he's staring at me. I remind myself that I need to be strong. I call the shots here.

Josie's and Liam's first encounter is emotionally intense. They still have a pull towards each other, but there are just too many things that prevent them from getting back together. One thing and the main thing is that Liam broke both of their hearts and damaged their relationship badly. Then there is the fact that Josie already has another relationship with a guy, Nick. The last thing I can not say or else I will ruin the story. You will just have to read it to find out :D!


 

Nick stops in front of me and grabs my arms, pinning me to the wall. I've never seen him like this before. This is a side of him that I don't like.

I hated Nick's character from the very beginning. He was just too possessive of Josie and he knew from the very beginning that she was still not over, and will never be over Liam. At the beginning of the story Josie describes him of being sweet, loving, and caring of her. But once Liam steps into the scene he turns into a whole different person. I just seriously could not stand his character.

 

In a few short minutes I'll be touching him and I may not want to stop.


My hands cup her face, pulling her closer. I kiss her full on lips. Lips I've missed for so long.

The love and attraction between Liam and Josie is too strong for them to stay away from each other. Josie may try her best to stay away from Liam, because she doesn't want to hurt Nick. But her heart belongs to Liam. The same happens with Liam. He may want to stay away from Josie, but all of his actions and thoughts bring him back to Josie. I really loved the romance between Liam and Josie. It is a sweet romance, but at the same time it is complicated


 

She just showed me what I've been missing all these years.

Heidi McLaughlin delivered an emotionally sweet romance. Forever My Girl is a story that will touch your heart and will leave it's imprint in your heart. This is the story of how two people can have a second chance in happiness, by forgetting about the mistakes in the past. Even if both their hearts were broken by one decision, they can be mended by each other.


 

Final Verdict: 4.5 Stars


Favorite Quotes:


My body sings a song and only he has the melody.

He's different, yet so much the same boy that I fell in love with all those years ago.
The boy I never stopped loving.

Josie tries to hide her elation but her face tells me everything I need to know; she's fantasized about being on the bike with me and I'm about to make her fantasy come true.

"He's an idiot." Liam throws his napkin down on the table. "If you were mine, that finger would not be bare, especially if you were visiting your ex-boyfriend."

"I watched for you and once I saw you, I knew I was going to end up chasing my girl, waiting for you to turn around and see..the real me and love me for who I am and not what I did to you."

He sets my hand on his chest, just over his heart and holds it there as his lips touch mine softly.

 


About the Author:


Heidi is the author of USA Today, Digital Book World, Amazon and Barnes & Noble Bestselling novel, Forever My Girl
Originally from the Pacific Northwest, she now lives in picturesque Vermont, with her husband and two daughters. Also renting space in their home is an over-hyper Beagle/Jack Russell and two Parakeets.
During the day Heidi is behind a desk talking about Land Use. At night, she's writing one of the many stories planned for release or sitting court-side during either daughter's basketball games.

 

 

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Saturday, September 14, 2013

Blog Tour (Playlist): Relinquishing Liberty by Maureen Mayer

Welcome to my stop in the Relinquishing Liberty by Maureen Mayer Blog Tour, hosted by Girls Heart Books Tours :D!


Title: Relinquishing Liberty

 

Author: Maureen Mayer

 

Series: Second Chances #1

 

Publication Date: August 26, 2013

 

Genre: New Adult

 

Synopsis:

On the outside, Liberty Davis appeared to have it all…a loving family, a tight knit circle of friends, and a bright future ahead of her. Everything was perfect. That is until her brother tragically took his own life, turning her whole world upside down.

Left to pick up the pieces of her broken family, Liberty is faced with focusing all of her attention on helping her parents cope with the loss of their son, while putting her own life on the back burner. But what no one seems to realize is that she is just as broken inside.

Now, four years later, twenty year old Liberty is taking back the reins of her life. She leaves behind everything she’s ever known, hoping to make a fresh start…one where she isn’t faced with the constant reminder that her brother is nothing more than faded memory. What she didn’t expect to find along the way was Shayne.

Tall, dark and tattooed, Shayne Thompson has developed quite a reputation for being a player. Despite everyone’s negative perception, Liberty still finds herself drawn to him. When she learns that Shayne knows all too well what it feels like to lose someone you love, she finds that they have a lot more in common than just a physical attraction.

When Liberty discovers a secret from Shayne’s past that threatens to tear them apart, she begins to question everything she’s ever felt for him. Will Liberty choose to follow her heart or will she give up the one person who finally made her feel whole again?

**This story contains language and sexual scenes, some of which may be unsuitable for younger readers.** 

 

 

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PLAYLIST:

Band of Horses – The Funeral 
Kelly Clarkson – Catch My Breath
 An Honest Year – Starting Over 
Dave Matthews Band – Crash Into Me 
Cary Brothers – Can't Take My Eyes Off You 
Andrew Belle ft. Erin Mccarley – In My Veins
 Erin McCarley – What I Needed 
Sara Bareilles – Gravity 
Cary Brothers – Free Like 
You Make Me Skillet – Yours To Hold (Acoustic)
 City and Colour – Northern Wind 
Paramore – My Heart 
Crossfade – Cold 
Jason Mraz – I Won't Give Up 
Lady Antebellum – Just a Kiss 
Parachute – She Is Love
Calvin Harris feat. Florence Welch – Sweet Nothing 
Corey Crowder – When I'm With You 
Ed Sheeran – Kiss Me 
Lifehouse feat. Natasha Bedingfield– Between The Raindrops 
Ed Sheeran – Give Me Love 
Adelitas Way – Alive 
Erin McCarley – Pitter-Pat 
Erin McCarley – Lovesick Mistake 
My Darkest Days – Every Lie 
Barcelona – Please Don't Go
Rihanna – Stay 
Framing Hanley – Alone In This Bed 
Parachute – Kiss Me Slowly 
Justin Timberlake – Mirrors 

 

 

 About the Author:

Maureen Mayer was born, raised and currently resides in Buffalo, NY with her loving and supportive family and boyfriend of 8+ years. She’s always had a love for the outdoors, and when the city isn’t buried under snow, she can be found hiking, fishing, camping or lying on the beach. She’s a sucker for off-color humor, but holds a sweet spot for sick and twisted horror films.
Thanks to authors like J. K. Rawling, Stephanie Meyer and E. L. James, Maureen has rediscovered her love for reading. When she’s not writing, you can find her curled up in bed with her kindle, diving into a steamy romance novel. She is currently working on her first new adult novel and hopes to self-publish it late this summer. 

 

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Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Promo Event & Giveaway: When It Rains by Lisa De Jong

Today I am part of the When It Rains by Lisa De Jong Promo Event, hosted by Angie at Angie's Dreamy Reads :D! Read the Prologue and enter the giveaway at the bottom of the post!

 

 Title: When It Rains

 

Author: Lisa De Jong

 

Series: Stand Alone

 

Expected Publication Date: September 27, 2013

 

Genre: New Adult Contemporary Romance

 

Synopsis:

One night changed my life forever.

Beau Bennett has been my best friend since I can remember. He was my first crush before everything came crashing down, and now he wants more, but it's more than I can give him. Things are different now. I wish I could tell him why, but I can't.

I haven’t told anyone.

I never knew how much I really needed him until the day he left for college, and I was completely alone.

Then one day, Asher Hunt rides into town with his dark, captivating eyes and cocky grin. He doesn't care who I used to be, he's simply breathing life into what’s left. People warn me to stay away from him, but he helps me forget the pain that has held me hostage for so long; something I thought was impossible before he walked into my life.

I’ve been hurt.

I’ve been saved.

And I’ve found hope.

I thought my story was written that night, but now I know it was only a new beginning. Until one secret turns my world upside down…

Again.


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PROLOGUE:

When you live in a small town, there’s not much to do on a Friday night after a football game.  When the season started that year, some of the seniors at my high school decided that we should all have a bonfire after each game. It was really an excuse to drink and hook-up: two things I wasn’t interested in, but I always went to hang out with my friends anyway.

            That’s where I was that night. 
            The night I retreated into darkness, where the night sky had no stars, the day had no sun, and all hope was drained from my body.
            The night my life ended.
            And Beau Bennett wasn’t there.  If he had been, he would’ve saved me, just like he always did.  He was grounded that night for staying out past curfew the Friday before; in fact, it’s the only weekend I remember Beau ever being grounded. 
Life is a series of coincidences and that night, coincidence screwed me over.
            I was there with Morgan, my best friend since third grade.  She was dating the Senior Class President at the time and it didn’t take long before they disappeared, leaving me huddled near the fire with some of the other kids from my school.  I felt completely comfortable being alone because I’ve known most of these people since I had moved here when I was five.  That’s one of the nice things about small towns.
            Or so I thought.
            I was sitting with my arms wrapped around myself, trying to warm what the fire couldn’t, when Drew Heston sat down next to me.  My stomach did a somersault; I mean, Drew was a senior. Mr. Football, as everyone called him.  He was the local hero, the type of guy who would have a billboard outside of town someday.  It didn’t hurt that he looked amazing with his short dark hair, light green eyes and broad shoulders. 
I had secretly crushed on him since the day I first walked into the doors of my high school.  There was something about the way he walked the halls with his head held high that commanded every girl’s attention, including mine.  I’d never talked to him or even made eye contact with him, for that matter, but there he was, sitting next to me that night in front of the fire.  I couldn’t believe it.  Things like that didn’t happen to Kate Alexander.
“Hey, Kate, how’ve you been?” he asked, his eyes burning into the side of my head.  I couldn’t bring myself to look at him.  Just being near him made me lose all comprehension of the English language.
“Fine,” I mumbled, biting down on my lower lip.  A shiver ran through my body like a freight train as I finally glanced in his direction.
“Were you at my game tonight?” he asked, bumping my shoulder with his.  I could feel the heat coming off his muscular body and it made me blush. 
My thoughts drifted back to the third quarter when Drew threw the ball to his star receiver Jackson Reid, who, at the time, was surrounded by defenders.  My heart raced with excitement as I watched Jackson and three members of the other team jump up to catch the ball at the same time.  In the end, Jackson came out victorious because Drew threw it right into his hands.  It was nothing short of amazing, yet for Drew, it was completely normal. 
“You were great,” I replied, nervously reaching up to tighten my ponytail.  A breeze blew through and a few raindrops fell from the sky. I ran my hands up and down my arms in an attempt to chase the chill from my body, but it didn’t help.
“Are you cold?” he asked, scooting his body even closer to mine.  The way he was looking at me sent butterflies through my stomach. It wasn’t like I was an outcast at school, but I wasn’t one of the elite popular girls that guys like Drew usually spent their time on. 
“A little. I forgot my jacket at home,” I replied, feeling a few more raindrops fall on my cheek. 
He stood up and reached for my hand.  “Come on.  I have an extra sweatshirt in the house you can borrow.”
The party was being held at his house since his parents had gone out of town that weekend.  I hesitated for a minute before placing my hand in his.  I knew of him, but I didn’t really know him. It wasn’t the first time I’d been to his house, but it was the first time I’d been inside. I felt a little uneasy, but I still trusted him.  I didn’t have any reason not to.
Drew’s house was old, but it had been well maintained with a fresh coat of paint and a wraparound porch.  He opened the front door, never loosening his grip on my hand as he moved us forward.  My attention was so focused on the contemporary paint colors and beautiful cherry wood floors, it barely registered that we were heading upstairs. 
I watched as he took a key out of his pocket to unlock one of the doors that lined the second story hallway.  He must have noticed the way I was looking at him because his lips turned up on the sides.  “I don’t like anyone to be in my room but me,” he said, pushing the door open.
I nodded, following him inside.  Did I feel a little uncomfortable stepping into Drew Heston’s bedroom?  Yes.  Did I think for one moment that I shouldn’t be there?  No.  I’d known him for years.  Everyone knew him and thought the world of him.
When he closed the door and locked it, I felt my heart rate pick up. I watched him glance around the room, following his eyes with mine. The walls were a deep navy blue with various football posters covering them. And I’ll never forget how it smelled like cologne had been used to cover up the stench of his used gym clothes.
 I’d only been in one boy’s bedroom before and Beau’s hardly counts…he’s one of my best friends. Drew remains still, staring at me with glossed over eyes and, suddenly, being there didn’t feel right. “Can you find that sweatshirt?  I should probably get back outside before Morgan comes looking for me.” 
“Oh yeah, give me a sec,” he said, moving to dig through a drawer in his dresser.  I walked to the window at the other end of the room and looked down at the diminishing fire.  The rain was falling faster against the glass making it harder to see in the distance, but it looked like everyone had left their spots by the fire.  I really needed to hurry up and find Morgan before she left without me.
The house was completely quiet, sending a chill down my spine.  I closed my eyes and listened to Drew’s footsteps moving closer to me, my heart beating faster every time I heard the rubber soles of his shoes against the floorboards.  I just wanted to get out of there. Everything about being inside his room felt wrong and I wanted to escape it.  Going up to his bedroom was a bad idea…going to that party without Beau was a huge mistake.
His footsteps continued to get closer as I spun on my heels to head towards the door.  I was greeted with dark eyes and a vacant stare.  This was not the Drew I thought I knew.  I wanted to run out of this house and never look back but he was blocking my path.  “I’m going to wait outside.  It’s getting warm in here,” I lied, motioning toward his door.
He didn’t say a word as he pressed his body to mine, completely closing any gap that remained between us.  My hands were sweaty and my knees felt like they were made for paper dolls.  “Drew.”  It was like he was in a trance and it was scaring the hell out of me.
“It’s raining outside, Kate,” he said, reaching his hand up to cup my cheek. I stepped back out of his grasp, but he followed me.  It wasn’t long before my back was against the wall.  Even if I wanted to leave, it was too late.  His hands rested on the wall, caging me in with his arms.  “Mm, you smell so good,” he growled, pressing his lips to my neck.  His touch forced me to tilt my head in the other direction.  I felt helpless.
“Drew, please, just let me go.  I really need to find Morgan,” I cried.  My whole body was shaking from a fear unlike I’d ever felt before.  It was paralyzing.  I just wanted to run out the door as fast as I could and never look back, but I was stuck. 
He ignored me, running his lips down my jaw line.  I turned my head to fight, but he followed my movements. “What’s the matter, Kate?  I see the way you look at me.  You want this as much as I do,” he said with a husky voice that sent more panic through my already tense body.  I used the little bit of fight I had left in me to push on his chest but he didn’t move.  Not even an inch.
“Let me go,” I pleaded.  His right hand came down to grip my hip hard as he roughly pressed his lips to mine.  The force of his kiss sent pain to my lips and all I could taste was the mix of my blood and the alcohol on his breath.
When his hand found the bottom of my shirt and started to work the material up my bare stomach, I tried to move my legs forward but he was so much bigger and stronger than me. If anything, my attempts to push him away were only making things worse. 
He gripped my wrists tightly and pulled me over to his bed, pushing me onto my stomach.  I tried to pull my arms loose, but it caused pain to shoot through my wrists. I’ve never felt more terrified in my whole life.  He continued to hold my arms behind my back and pinned my legs down with his knees.
“HELP,” I yelled as loud as I could through my panic and tears. 
He clamped his hand over my mouth, yanking my head back until my neck ached. “Everyone’s outside.  No one’s going to hear you.”
That was it.  I was trapped under him, alone with no one to save me.  All the fight I had was drained from my body, and the chances of anyone pulling me out of this hell were getting slimmer by the minute. Tears rolled down my face, soaking his bedspread while I fixated on the raindrops hitting the window. He forced my jeans down so they were left slung around my left ankle. When I heard him working at his belt buckle, I felt like I couldn’t breathe anymore.  I’d never been exposed like that and it wasn’t at all what I wanted.  I was saving myself for someone special and Drew was taking it from me.  I gasped for air but I couldn’t get any into my lungs. I tried to scream again but no sound came out.
I felt him pressed against my backside and it made me want to throw up.  “STOP,” I screamed, trying again to free myself from his hold but he was too strong.
He let out a hushed chuckle from behind.  “Are you going to give up?”
“Please, don’t,” I begged again.  It was my last chance and I knew it.  He didn’t respond and when I heard the sound of foil paper ripping, I squeezed my eyes shut and said a silent prayer.  I wanted it all to be a nightmare I would soon wake up from.  I wanted someone to come through that door and stop it from happening.  I wanted to be anywhere but there.
Except no one was listening to me that night.  I could hear the soft tap of the rain falling on the window, but the rest of the house was completely silent. I used to like the sound of rain but Drew took that from me too.
He pressed into me so quickly that pain erupted through my whole body, sending a deafening scream into the darkness of the room.  I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling like I was drowning with no way to get to the surface.  I’ve never felt such intense physical and emotional pain all at once.  It was the absolute worst moment of my life. 
It still is.
He didn’t stop.  Not when I screamed.  Not when I cried. He kept invading my body with each and every thrust, killing me a little more inside each time.  It hurt more to fight it so I remained still, continuing to stare at the droplets that rolled down the window. He grunted as he continued to shred my soul to pieces and I tried my best to block it out.  I didn’t need to have his words locked into my memory forever when I already had to live with the feel of him inside of me.  I knew I’d never be the same after what he did to me.
I’m not sure how long I was in the room, but it felt like an eternity.  My whole life flashed before me as I was overcome with grief.  For the rest of my life, I would always regret going up to that room with Drew Heston.  I could never get that day back or a lot of the other things he took from me.
The most important thing I lost was my entire sense of self.  It took seventeen years to build my foundation and it took mere minutes to tear it down. 
I hate him.
The old Kate is gone...and she’s never coming back.
And I’ll always hate when it rains.

 


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Lisa De Jong is a wife, mother and full-time number cruncher who lives in the Midwest. Her writing journey involved insane amounts of coffee and many nights of very little sleep but she wouldn't change a thing. She also enjoys reading, football and music.

 

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